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Review of negative and positive physical forms for healing.

1. ARTERIOSCLEROSIS— (Liz Burbo)

2. ATHEROSCLEROSIS— (V. Zhikarentsev)

Negative thought forms

Resistance, tension, increased narrow-mindedness. Refusal to see good in the surrounding world.

I am completely open (open) to life and joy in this life. I choose for myself a path in which I perceive the world around me with love.

3. ATHEROSCLEROSIS— (Louise Hay)

Negative thought forms

Internal resistance, voltage. Progressive narrowness of thinking. Reluctance to see good.

Possible positive thought form

I am open (open) to life and joy. My choice is to look at the world with love.

4. ATHEROSCLEROSIS— (Liz Burbo)

This disease, also called OM, affects the walls of large and medium-sized arteries. With atherosclerosis, walls and elastic connective tissues The arteries become hardened as a result of the deposition of cholesterol on them. Atherosclerosis often causes angina pectoris, which can lead to a heart attack. Men suffer from atherosclerosis five times more often than women. Atherosclerosis is also the main cause of arterial aneurysms. See articles and, with the addition that this disease is a consequence of too frequent grief, sharp criticism, as well as the inability to enjoy life, which causes internal ossification in the body.

5. ATHEROSCLEROSIS— (Valery Sinelnikov)

Description of the reason

An increase in cholesterol levels in the blood is a blockage of the channels through which food comes to you. joy. And not using fatty foods is in first place in the causes of this disease. Since it has been proven that if cholesterol does not come from outside, then its own internal (endogenous) cholesterol begins to be produced. The reason is not food, as many people think, but a lack of joy. Learn to rejoice - and your blood vessels will be cleansed! Metabolism depends on our emotional mood.

Resistance and tension in life affect blood vessels and also lead to atherosclerosis. I have found that people with vascular sclerosis are very stubborn. They stubbornly refuse to notice the good in life, constantly insisting that this world is bad, that life is hard and unbearable.

9. MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS— (Louise Hay)

Negative thought forms

Rigidity of thinking, hardness of heart, iron will, lack of flexibility. Fear.

Possible positive thought form

By dwelling only on pleasant and joyful thoughts, I create a bright and joyful world. I enjoy freedom and security.

10. MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS— (V. Zhikarentsev)

Negative thought forms

Mental rigidity, hardness of heart, iron will, lack of flexibility. Fear. Anger.

Possible positive thought form

By choosing joyful thoughts, I create a loving, full of joy world. I'm safe and free (free)

11. MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS— (Liz Burbo)

Physical blocking

Sclerosis is a hardening of an organ or tissue. Multiple sclerosis is characterized by multiple lesions of different parts of the nervous system.
Emotional blockage

A person suffering from multiple sclerosis wants to harden so as not to suffer in certain situations. He completely loses flexibility and cannot adapt to a person or situation. He gets the feeling that someone is playing on his nerves, and anger grows in him. Going beyond his limits, he is completely lost and does not know where to move next.

Sclerosis also affects those who mark time in one place and do not develop. Such a person wants someone to take care of him, but hides this desire because he does not want to seem dependent. As a rule, this person strives for perfection in everything and places too strict demands on himself. He wants to please at any cost. Naturally, he is not able to achieve perfection and therefore justifies all his failures by the fact that life itself is not as perfect as he would like. He also complains all the time about how others try less and have more.

Mental block

The more severe the illness, the faster you must act. Your body requires that you allow your natural gentleness to emerge and stop being callous towards yourself and other people. Give yourself the right to be dependent on an emotional level before your illness does it for you.

Relax and stop making such strict demands on yourself. Try to understand that the ideal personality that you are trying to achieve is completely unrealistic for you. You don't have to prove anything to anyone. You are afraid of not being liked; it prevents you from being yourself and living the way your heart wants.

Perhaps you are so disappointed with a parent of the same sex that you don’t want to be like him and therefore make higher demands on yourself. Acceptance and forgiveness (more important - to forgive yourself for judging your father or mother) will significantly speed up recovery. The stages of forgiveness are described at the end of this book.

According to those who practice holistic medicine or treating the whole person, this is true. Psychosomatics is the doctrine of the connection between body and spirit; this has been talked about long before our days. Today, diseases that are triggered by mental anguish are called psychosomatic. The basis of the disease in this case is considered to be intrapersonal conflict, when a person’s own aspirations and existential desires are so suppressed by upbringing and environment that they are pushed out to the periphery of conscious life.

Intrapersonal conflict is a state when opposing motives collide.

Closest to understanding psychological reasons Multiple sclerosis was approached by an American psychotherapist, a woman of amazing destiny, Louise Hay. In Canada, a similar point of view is expressed by psychologist and philosopher Liz Burbo. Our specialists dealing with this issue - psychologist Vladimir Zhikharentsev, doctor Valery Sinelnikov - support their foreign colleagues.

The concept of psychosomatics

Psychosomatic illnesses are considered as a protest of the body in cases where a person’s behavior does not meet the urgent needs of the body. Let's look at this with an example.

A young man was offended by his boss. He wants to answer like a man, to apply physical strength. The body has prepared everything for this: it synthesized adrenaline and other hormones, narrowed the lumen of blood vessels, contracted muscles, and accelerated the heart rate. But the man cannot deal with the offender - for the family he is the only breadwinner, his wife and child depend on him. And it’s unlikely that he’ll be able to get the position he currently holds a second time. The man holds back and puts a smile on his face, defusing the situation. But where does everything that has already been synthesized go? Substances not used for fighting rush to the vessels and internal organs. After a few years, “to add insult to injury” to his established career, the man develops hypertension and other illnesses and becomes a regular visitor to doctors.

This example is the simplest; in the case of multiple sclerosis, psychosomatics are much more complex.

The founder of psychosomatics, Franz Alexander, defined the “Chicago Seven”: hypertension, peptic ulcer, bronchial asthma, ulcerative colitis, neurodermatitis, thyrotokinosis and rheumatoid arthritis.

Louise Hay's point of view

She believes that the basis of multiple sclerosis is hardness of heart, unbending will, lack of any flexibility and mental rigidity. According to Louise Hay, this is a disease of those people who have completely given up on themselves. It happens to those who endure secret sadness for decades, whose life has lost meaning. Achieving a goal becomes the only one and is so important that it destroys the value of life as such. Physical and mental overstrain overstrain a person so much that if his hopes collapse, he has no choice but a serious illness. People with multiple sclerosis always have one single scenario in their head; no other option suits them.

In the clinic we often observe that Louise Hay is right. Thus, a 40-year-old woman was recently discharged at the stage of multiple sclerosis that precedes disability. From a psychosomatic point of view, her story is typical.

She was born into a prosperous full family, grew up as a beloved child, and developed according to her age. Higher education, economist. I didn't have anything serious. At the age of 24, she met a man in her circle, whom she soon married. The husband always behaved highest degree approximately, sincerely loved, wanted children. But desired pregnancy didn't come. The result of the examination is infertility due to birth defect- became a death sentence. The husband continued to love and pamper, was always faithful and devoted, but for her this was secondary. The impossibility of repeating the ideal – in her mind – family model became the stumbling block from which the illness began. The husband doubled his care and guardianship, but nothing can “knock the woman off the general course” of self-destruction. Most likely, after some time the husband will become an inconsolable widower. But the development of events could have gone in a completely different direction. You could enjoy life with loving man, bathing in love and tenderness every day. You could travel around the world or have a dacha, grow flowers and have fun with friends. It was possible to adopt a child, and more than one. It was possible to create a family orphanage to live surrounded by cute children's faces. The colossal energy that led to its own destruction could have been directed along a different path. But it didn’t happen.

Christian morality prescribes doing good in any situation.

What else does Louise Hay talk about?

This woman has the right to call a spade a spade because she deserves it own life. The tragic events that befell her could break and crush anyone. Violence in childhood, early birth and a lost child, the departure of her beloved husband, poverty and oblivion - too much for one. But she managed to do an amazing thing, for which the whole world loves her. She separated the value human life from the circumstances in which one sometimes has to live. She showed the whole world how, thanks to a positive train of thought and hope for the best, you can get out of any hole.

Patients with multiple sclerosis do not know how to do this. Failures literally knock them down.

Louise Hay claims that workaholics who do not know how to feel sorry for themselves or others get sick. Failure turns them into monsters. A person directs all his anger and bitterness inside himself - and illness sets in. The same thing happens with athletes who “lay their lives” on the result. The bitterness of defeat and anger towards oneself in case of failure demoralize a person, and destruction begins. The inability to get out of the rut of life trauma and see other perspectives distinguishes these people. They are so immersed in the situation that they require outside help. Such people need psychotherapists in order to assess what is happening impartially, to show that a different life and a different way of self-realization are possible. Unfortunately, they do not always listen to psychotherapists.

The parable of two frogs caught in sour cream. One immediately folded its legs and drowned, the other floundered until the morning and knocked down a lump of butter. With the last of her strength, she leaned on this lump and jumped out of the jug.

Two other destructive behaviors

They are described not only by Louise Hay, but also by other authors, Leslie Leckron, for example. One type is the “artificial optimist.” People of this type never express their emotions directly. They are always “on horseback”, they never have defeats or disappointments, they are not set up, deceived or offended. The maximum they are capable of is to laugh at themselves, even when they want to cry. More than anything else, they need social recognition, praise and psychological stroking. These people place impossibly high demands on themselves. They want to be liked so much that they become detached from reality. Alien standards – often parental or foreign – become for them the “ideal” around which their whole life revolves. For failures, such people blame everyone but themselves. They cannot cry when they are offended, or hit their fist if they are rude. All experiences are pushed deeper, and others are shown complete well-being, which in reality does not exist. Almost all of my energy goes into pretending.

People are busy with their own lives, and in most cases they don’t care about others.

Another type with whom there is a lot of trouble are militant mothers. These strive for the child to be perfect. Such mothers do not take into account the natural abilities and inclinations of the baby. Children of such mothers suffer from diseases neuromuscular transmission, in which muscles are destroyed. The mother herself floods everything around with her hidden anger. This is truly scary - both adults and children who fall into the orbit of such a mother suffer. Through nagging and dissatisfaction, such women gradually create a vacuum around themselves, from which they then suffer deeply.

Common features that lead to multiple sclerosis

All experts note that in countries where the happiness index is high - Vanuatu, Costa Rica, Vietnam - people do not suffer from multiple sclerosis. Perhaps this is a coincidence, although unlikely. The main characterological traits that are dangerous in terms of the development of the disease have been identified:

  • black and white thinking, in which there are no halftones or compromises;
  • an obsession with justice in which reality is not taken into account;
  • constant running “for the ideal”;
  • lack of responsibility for one's own life;
  • blaming others for your failures;
  • deep childhood traumas that a person refuses to rethink.

Psychologists believe that with multiple sclerosis, a person tries to create an impenetrable shell in the body, which is used to isolate himself from the outside world.

The whole problem with the sick is that real world cannot in any way correspond to the ideal picture that they have cultivated in their heads.

How to pull out psychological roots?

Experts believe that you need to get rid of three blockages: physical, emotional and mental. Physical blocking is removed proper nutrition, normalization of sleep and wakefulness. For nutrition, it is important to get rid of foods causing allergies. Each person has his own set of products. It is most convenient to undergo an examination at an allergy center.

Emotional blocking is a loss of flexibility and marking time in one place. The solution is obvious - allow yourself to live with mistakes, like everyone else. Don’t stop developing, periodically reconsider relationships and views, “keep up” with life changes. Of course, this is easier said than done. But there is no choice: either stay the same and allow the disease to “eat” you, or change something in yourself to recover. You need to take responsibility for your life only on yourself, stop blaming anyone for your mistakes.

No one will give at the end of life gold medal for “correctness” - there is no such thing.

Mental blocking is complete independence from the people around you. To remove it, you need to understand that man is a herd animal, that we always depend on those who are nearby. You need to stop controlling everyone and everything - the world will still revolve according to its own rules, and not invented ones. Control has no meaning, it only takes away health. Of course, this does not apply to small children and helpless old people. We need to give a way out own feelings, voice them.

The psychosomatic direction advises those who want to recover: be yourself. Unrestrained, quarrelsome, sometimes rude, not very smart, insufficiently educated. The price of reconciliation with oneself is life.

Personal experience of healing from multiple sclerosis (part II)

Year two.

An image appears involuntarily before my mind's eye more and more often.

I'm sitting in wheelchair, covered with a checkered wool blanket, I look at the yellowed August leaves, at the red, dew-covered side of a ripe apple peeking out of the grass. The bright, gentle rays of the setting sun break through the foliage. The picture is colorful and painfully frightening.

I work in small company in food production, as head of the marketing department. My career is going uphill by inertia, however, I clearly understand that I am no longer developing professionally and have no desire.

Since all my thoughts are subordinated to the search for medicines, and answers to the question “why me?”, “this can’t be”, rejection, horror of the situation, and the feeling of being a victim of ridiculous circumstances sometimes go off scale.

On the Internet I find forums dedicated to multiple sclerosis.

There they meet completely different people, who are united by a single symptom - illness.

Basic characteristic features such communication: collective despondency, encouragement like “everything will be fine,” accusing everyone and everything (doctors, government, relatives, friends, city administrations, spouses) of indifference. And also the latent confidence that their grief is the bitterest grief in the world, and everyone should immediately quit what they’re doing and simply have to start saving them. Although this will certainly not be enough because they are the most unfortunate martyrs in the universe.

And also the mass useful information about this world of “unfortunates”... Medicines, the names of doctors, clinics, treatment methods, sensational statements that appear from time to time about new drugs, which often turn out to be charlatan drugs, and general total disbelief.

Complaints about their condition are interspersed with requests for help from people who have just learned about the disease...

Welcome to the world of the outcasts.

Cluster depressed people, rushing about in the impasse of their own weakness, as if in hell, or, due to emotional lability, falling into unjustified complacency and sentimentality, trusting everything that is offered pharmaceutical market and its underground, who buy everything and recklessly try it on themselves.

Or with childish stubbornness, defending the “gold standard” official medicine, that is, the little that she is ready to offer them before she sits them down wheelchair. At the same time, denying as heresies any things that do not correspond to the tenets of this system. Be it cases of recovery in general, or new methods and theories related to the occurrence, development and treatment of the disease.

The third group is the least numerous. These are people with still a strong psyche and relative health, not paying attention to all the symptoms and doctors’ diagnosis, who continue to live ordinary life. In fact, having isolated themselves from the problem, they do not change anything in their lives, except drug withdrawal exacerbations.

It was in the second year of my illness that I understood the basic principle by which this community functions:

All three groups do not take responsibility for what is happening in their lives, leaving it in the hands of others, be it certified doctors, friends, relatives or clergy, charlatans. And no matter how benevolent these OTHERS are, they decide everything for these people while they are helpless, lazy and unarmed.

There are only a few people capable of taking responsibility for what is happening. These are active seekers. Such people trust their intuition, reactions own body, and are determined to find a way out of the situation. As a rule, these are people who follow their own path and rely only on themselves.

As a rule, only the latter are healed. I'm lucky - I know such people personally :)

At the end of the second year of illness, I concluded that the first stage, the beginning of healing, is to take responsibility for what is happening in my own life.

Taking responsibility for everything means understanding that YOU are responsible for choosing a doctor, for what medications and in what way YOU use, for what and how YOU think and feel. Even just taking responsibility, realizing that no one in this world should, is obligated and will not save you, except yourself, is already quite a serious move towards recovery.

The second step on this interesting path for me was a thorough study of this disease. I began to understand medications and the principles of their action. I scrupulously collected and analyzed this information, paying attention special attention consequences of their use and side effects. I tried to look at every symptom from all sides, including from the standpoint of alternative medicine.

I constantly consulted with my doctor, but at the same time I made decisions myself, and I must say, this made my life much easier.

Now many people have the Internet, and if not, then when the conversation turns to the desire to live, usually everyone has the opportunity to access it, well, except perhaps those for whom this desire is not sufficiently expressed. I won’t argue whether this is good or bad, I’ll just state: today, for many patients, information is literally life.

Year three.

The third year of living with multiple sclerosis turned out to be hard work, stress and learning for me.

Internal psychological unpreparedness, conflict of ideals and emotional vulnerability led to disappointment in the profession, people, society, and oneself. Which naturally led to worsening health problems. My old world cracked and fell apart in parts, it was necessary to build a new one, with working principles, adequate to the revealed reality.

In the evolution of the patient, according to my personal classification, I have stepped onto the last step. I left work with the clear intention of understanding what was happening to me. Despite the fact that the upcoming leap year 2004 was the most difficult for me in terms of health, and I had as many as 5 exacerbations, it was also one of the most fruitful in terms of personal development.

I didn’t work all year, I sat at home and read, read, read, read... and studied hard, did psychological exercises, meditated, changed my thoughts, emotions, life.

I already had absolute confidence that the roots of the disease were in my psyche, and self-observation showed that all its physical manifestations were just a reaction, a consequence of the way I thought and acted.

My previous constant depressions, resentments, dissatisfaction, fears, complexes, worries - all this sucked the much-needed energy out of me. vital energy. A conflict of thoughts, ideas, ideals and suddenly revealed to me new reality, mutually exclusive values ​​and desires tore me apart.

According to my observations, confession alleviated my condition, even physical, but did not radically change anything. By that time it became obvious to me that my understanding Orthodox faith in its everyday aspect, i.e. the officially taught concept of sin, dogma and limitation by the Clergy does not correspond to my inner understanding of God as a father and not an envious and greedy being from old testament, and can no longer explain what is happening to me in life, satisfy my thirst for knowledge. This kept me searching.

I developed an unquenchable THIRST FOR KNOWLEDGE, a thirst for meaning or, if you like, the living God, a desire to UNDERSTAND by what laws this world functions.

Within me, an internal compass was discovered and calibrated, which unmistakably began to point towards love and acceptance. Together with the critical mind, which subjected each newly received information to analysis for compliance with life experience and current situations, it searched for and discovered relationships between my thoughts, actions and events that occurred in my life following them.

He helped me select and weigh thoughts and ideas, gradually build my own worldview system, more convenient, freer, more friendly and complete unconditional love.

This thirst literally, like a powerful motor, dragged me from book to book, from discovery to discovery, forcing me to study many human thoughts from all over the world, life experiences and views. Theory by theory, practice by practice... I gradually began to transform from a “servant of God” into his beloved and loving child.

Louise Hay "Heal Your Body, Heal Your Life" (Practical Forgiveness Exercises and General Approach)

Liz Burbo “Listen to your body”, etc. (exercises and approach)

V. Sinelnikov “Love your illness”, etc.

M.S. Norbekov “The Experience of a Fool”, etc. (destruction of stereotypes, directed imagination, emotional states from experience)

P.D. Uspensky/G.I. Gurdjieff “In Search of the Miraculous” (the most important blow to the framework and stereotypes that happened to me)

Walsh Donald “Conversations with God” (A very practical book about relationships with God, one of the key ones)

Ram Tzu "There is no way..."

R. Bach - especially “Illusions” and “Jonathan Livingston Seagull” are artistic for the soul.

Hermann Hesse “Siddhartha” (philosophical, beautiful, almost meditative piece)

Robert Anton Wilson "Prometheus Rising." Psychology of evolution" (conceptual, for the mind)

The scope of my stereotypes gradually expanded, and acceptance, awareness, positivity, courage and freedom of judgment grew in proportion to this. For the first time in quite a while long period Over time, a sincere happy smile began to appear on my lips. I began to feel signs of liberation and euphoria.

This was greatly facilitated by the passage of the “Forgiveness” technique according to Louise Hay. After reading “The Experience of a Fool,” Norbekov still did not have power, but the ability to even consciously evoke the necessary emotions and creative energy from time to time was amazing, allowing him to revel in it, rejoice and feel his body.

The skills of introspection, stopping the internal dialogue acquired in meditation, concentration based on tracking my own thoughts, built on the practices of Orthodoxy and Taoism, allowed me to choose a non-judgmental perception of reality.

The internal spiritual and value perception of Christianity served as a reliable foundation for further development. Gurdjieff's thoughts broke horizons and stereotypes, opening up the possibility of interpreting in a different way any knowledge contained in books and human experience. The words “Everything I can, and you can do even more” ceased to be an empty phrase, and gradually took the place of one of the fundamental building blocks of my universe.

The accumulation of knowledge and experience gradually made it possible to change thoughts and habitual reactions and, in the end, learn to independently CHOOSE your future.

There was a feeling of a rich life, we reached a conscious level of relationships that I had not even suspected before. Discovery, after discovery life was filled bright colors and a clear understanding of your true capabilities.

And then one day, namely on the night of January 6-7, that is, on Orthodox Christmas SOMETHING happened to me that I am inclined to call Enlightenment.

Physically and emotionally, it was a bright flash of an indescribable feeling of joy, light, happiness, inner peace and trust in the world. Instant awareness of oneself as part of Him, loved, needed and protected. A feeling of unconditional love for all living things, an all-consuming sense of unity.

I cannot say at what point my healing occurred, but after this experience the exacerbations never recurred.

It was both easy and difficult at the same time, it was like taking a step into parallel reality. Now my world is a daily visit from a miracle. And there are no more illnesses in it, except for those that are sometimes useful to me and which I allow to visit me.

My life has been “officially” free of multiple sclerosis for almost two years now; the diagnosis has been removed. He changed my life and left it, like a wave leaving a scattering of treasures on the sand. Thanks to this disease, my reality has changed beyond recognition and continues to change.

On my table there is a saucer filled to the top with strawberries, next to it there is a delicate aroma of strong black tea, in which flower petals are visible.

I have at my complete disposal a small but bright room in a large ten-story building overlooking the noisy Mar Ilyas street in Beirut. I also have a pen and a lot of clean white paper. The sea in the evenings, and the starry sky with a huge moon at night. What else is needed for happiness and sabbatical?

I still decided to write a book about healing from multiple sclerosis. Write with a regular pen on paper, a pen that you bought in the Moscow metro from a mute person. I think this is a sign. This is very good pen, she has been living here for several years now and always helps me out. On her dark green side is sun shine written in white letters.

Maybe it was my guardian angel, who specially went down to the subway to exchange this pen for a worn ten from my pocket?

Julia! You raised a lot interesting topic. At least for me it is of great interest. Just like you, I was an overly modest person. I was afraid to say too much. I was afraid that I would somehow be misunderstood. In a word, he was terribly shy. But modesty and shyness have not gone away yet. Moreover, after I fell ill with MS, the fear of saying or doing anything only increased. I began to be afraid to walk down the street. I have a complex: What will the people around me think? Is there a drunk walking next to them? He's shaking. I understand that you shouldn't even think about what other people will think. I need to think about myself. But it is very difficult for me to overcome this complex in myself. I'm interested. How were you able to overcome your complexes? Maybe you can recommend something to me? Not caring, of course, scares me too, but at the moment I don’t like the complexes described above most of all.

Ilya, thank you very much for speaking out on this topic! It seemed to me that there was hardly a person whose character would remain unchanged. The “test” turned out to be too serious...

Previously, and especially now, I am convinced that the test in the form of MS was not given in vain. It seems that fate is more directly “pushing” us to change - in our lifestyle, in our character, or both.

Speaking about character, I remembered that, in addition to uncertainty, I was a real pessimist. I seem to have completely gotten rid of pessimism (pah-pah-pah).

It has become much easier, Ilya, to cope with all sorts of difficulties.

Of course, it didn’t happen without help - about 2 years after the diagnosis, I met a young man, also with MS - an “incorrigible” optimist. It was from him that I successfully “got infected”, so to speak... By the way, it really helps to “get over” your shyness when you help OTHER people, Ilya... She is excellent at acting.

About the “staggering”, uncertain gait - there are several mental psychologically helpful nuances.

Firstly, occasionally remember that other people don’t care about us at all - i.e. doesn't matter.

Second: not long ago I accidentally remembered the beautiful city of St. Petersburg, where there are many such people, and about England, where the same thing is true - i.e. I imagine myself, one might say, a girl from St. Petersburg :-).

The third, coolest way was invented quite recently: when I walk with a slight limp right leg, I think that there may have been a fracture (God forbid, of course). If there is only uncertainty and a slow pace in walking, then it is even simpler - “I have a little dizziness, nothing more.”

If we’re in the mood, let’s go outside for training tomorrow, Ilya ;-)? For the accuracy of the experiment, we won’t even hold hands... :ura.